I Bruise Easily

This is almost exactly what I told my Jarl and Daddy when I first began talking to Them. So much of my past relationships still linger in the form of either nightmares or panicky fears that grip me so tight sometimes I can't breathe for a minute. It’s those little things that make me want to turn and run, before another mark can be made on my fragile heart/soul.

The last 24 hours have been . . . . traumatic - for lack of a better description. Old issues of loss, the extremely touchy subject of someone close passing, and guilt for not doing more for my friend while I could – have all come to a head. Thank God, this morning she is alert and knew who I was. . . but I just have this feeling I cannot shake. I will be so very surprised if the party I had been planning for her birthday (but canceled when she was re-admitted) will take place.

Anyway, enough of that. Back to the song. The lyrics touched my heart in so many ways and really communicate what I need to say the most today. . . to my Jarl. . . and to Daddy. The video rocks too, so click the link with her name and watch it .

~elana

"I Bruise Easily"
Sung by Natasha Bedingfield

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defenses down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So I’m learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

[Chorus]

I bruise easily
I bruise easily