Unconditional?

Everyone talks about unconditional slavery, no limits, no hesitations, no doubts. Everyone expects absolute devotion, come cancer, car wreck, or stroke. But what happens if it is the slave who has the accident or has bad health? Yes, it will affect her ability to physically serve Him and wait on Him hand and foot, but does it really affect her slavery or her surrender? Does it alter His control over her? So many feel that what it takes to truly be a slave is an eager need to serve and a humble heart that wants to please. Do those aspects of the girl change with her health?

If a Master is taking care of His slave, who is serving whom? If there is a medical condition in which she is not able to serve Him sometimes, then is she serving? Shouldn't everything should be about Him. Is it wrong that these are His first thoughts? Is it selfish for her to become upset over the dramatic change that will come over her life because of this, and His only concern is that He will be "serving" her? Yes her thoughts and life becomes about serving Him, but she makes herself feel guilty enough without His reminder that she will pretty much be 'useless' to Him. Sure He didn't say the words, but by asking "who is serving who" He might of well had. The worst part is that it was a hypothetical situation in regards to an illness that can be cured. Personal feelings are that One must take care of His car, oil changes and maintenance, so that He can have better control over the car. Wouldn't the same hold true with a slave?

Maybe I am not cut out for being One's slave.