Tears

It has happened again.

At least this time, I felt something was wrong... Perhaps I am finally learning to see the signs? Yet it doesn’t hurt any less...

Ultimately I know it will be for the best. Things with MrFamiliar made things extremely complicated! Especially the way that MathMan was pushing me to explore things with MrF. I have stayed confused this month, between MathMan encouraging me to invest in the relationship and MrF telling me that he doesn’t mind I have MathMan in my life, as long as he [MrF] is #1.

This morning’s horoscope:
It's time to move past the hurt of painful memories so you can be more available to experience the joyful possibilities of today. But this doesn't mean forgetting about what previously happened; rather, it's about stepping outside your personal history so you can see your life from a more cosmic perspective. Avoiding your emotions isn't a viable strategy because you'll end up feeling irritable without knowing why. However, letting go of old attachments allows you to live more fully in the present.

I think I am growing a bit selfish in my old age. With this brief experience with MrF, I have reassured myself that I must have an emotional/mental connection with Someone...

Plus I don't think I realized how lonely I have been...