I belong to me

Its been a rough week or so at work and tonight, too much on my mind to sleep... so I started watching a few different music videos on youtube. Normally I'm not a huge Jessica Simpson fan, but I stumbled across this song/video. It brings tears and seems to... something about it truly connects to my heart right now. The words are beautiful and inspiring and the music is an easy beat to let go to... The thing is, it is contradictory to the true desires of my heart... I think.

As a submissive with slave tendencies, I do have a deep desire to belong to Someone who not only can mold me but also master me. But, while I am single, I am truly doing my best to take care of myself, take responsibility for my own choices/consequences, and I don't want to have to totally lose myself in a relationship anymore... While a dominant man will mold me to what pleases Him, I still want to be me... I still need to be me. I learned the hard way, a long time ago, that until I give myself to someone else... I do belong to me.

This post may not make much sense, especially shared so quickly after some of my other entries... but maybe its because I'm very lost right now.

This song, these lyrics, touched me too deeply for me not to share.

I belong to me

Sung by Jessica Simpson

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you, baby

It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to, baby

And I won't give up me to be part of you

It's not that I don't want to have you in my life, baby

It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right, baby

Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me

I complete myself

Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me

I don't belong to you

My heart is my possession

I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me

I'm one, not half of two

And if you're gonna love me

You should know this, baby

That I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby

That who I am is not about who I am with, baby

That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you, I do

I don't need somebody to complete me

I want you to know

I'll give all my love but I'm not givin' all my soul

I belong to me

I don't belong to you

My heart is my possession

I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me

I'm one, not half of two

And if you're gonna love me

You should know this, baby

That I belong to me

Love don't mean changin' who you are

To be who somebody wants you to be

Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me

I don't belong to you

My heart is my possession

I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me

I don't belong to you

My heart is my possession

I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me

I'm one, not half of two

And if you're gonna love me

You should know this, baby

That I belong to me