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It’s been a rough couple of days. A girl is grieving, over several things.

Girl had a ‘Daddy’ she was spending time with, talking, opening up, she felt strongly about, who decided He didn’t want to talk to her anymore because he took a quote the wrong way and then girl told him he was pitching a tantrum for thinking the worst of her without talking to her... Two days now, and he still isn’t talking to her. But if One cannot control His own emotionals and judgements, how can He truly control another? So she is dealing with that loss.

A client’s parent passed and girl was left to try and explain it to him, comfort him... His pain is felt so strongly by this girl, her heart breaks every single time she has to try and help him understand. How can she tell him that he is going to be ok, that he is still loved and his mom will always be looking down on him... when he is going through one of her worst fears? It is so hard for this girl to try and keep her personal issues/fears with death seperate from what her client is going through.

Jarl has been away for almost ten days, she misses Him and His conversations very much. His surgery went well, thankfully, and He is at home recovering... but things didn't go well the last time We spoke and its been 10 days and... with everything else going on, she's extremely un-grounded feeling.

The weather has been a lot of back and forth lately, cold nights, hot days, cold rains ~ and her fibromyalgia has been doing a number on muscles. Girl just feels so isolated, not alone, but secluded, and cannot express what she needs too. The hurt is too intense and girl’s mind is so cloudy.

Maybe this girl is just... tired of the disappointment of learning who she thought Someone was, isn't who He is at all. Of knowing that it still is not her time to find what she craves so deeply.

We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment.
~Jim Rohn