Spinning

A girl hates this feeling.

Very much alone.

Outside looking in.

Cannot find balance.

No one speaks my language, so not only can I not find relief but I can't find understanding either. I don't know how to describe this overwhelming... frustration. I'm feeling "woe is me" its very different. Its definitely a form of spinning... Almost like I've been juggling and am growing tired of trying to keep everything up in the air... but I can't let it fall, I can't let anything drop!

my heart is just longing for that One
I can trust to catch the balls I drop.