Desire to Belong

be·long     

[bih-lawng, -long] 

–verb (used without object)
1. to be in the relation of a member, adherent, inhabitant, etc.(usually followed by to ): He belongs to the Knights of Columbus.
2. to have the proper qualifications, especially socialqualifications, to be a member of a group: You don't belong inthis club.
3. to be proper or due; be properly or appropriately placed,situated, etc.: Books belong in every home. This belongs onthe shelf. He is a statesman who belongs among the great.


—Verb phrase
4.
belong to,
a.  to be the property of: The book belongs to her.
b. to be a part or adjunct of: That cover belongs to this jar.

I need to belong.

I don't want to just 'be His'.

I don't want Him to have some sense of assumed entitlement to me.

I don't want him to simply 'own me'.

I want to belong to Him.

Belong.

To.

Him.

I want someone who will be as invested in ‘us’ and the exchange of power as I am... as willing to make it work.  I hope for someone who might want to at least hear my voice throughout the day or text me to say hello but I’m beginning to realize that may be a bit too much to wish for.

My puppy belongs to me.  She is not only my pet but my responsibility.  I take care of her, even on days I don’t feel good or feel like it, because she is mine.  She belongs to me.  I know it upsets her a great deal when I leave her outside in the fenced in play pen all night, so no matter how exhausted I am when I get home or how badly I’m hurting, I bring her in and play with her.  I want to do everything in my power for her to be happy, healthy, and a good pet for me… because she belongs to me, I actively take responsibility for her well being.  That’s what I mean by I want to belong... 

Yes I am demanding.  Yes I am emotional.  Yes I struggle with abandonment demons that I don’t feel strong enough to conquer on my own.  Yes I have a great deal going on right now and desperately am seeking a way to find/maintain balance in my life...  but I am a good girl.  I have to believe I would be worth it in the long run. 

I don’t understand... maybe I'm being unrealistic.