Country Strong

Country Strong

Sung by Gwyneth Paltrow

For the movie, Country Strong.

I know you see me

Like some wide eyed dreamer

That just rolled in off a dusty mid west bus

Yeah, on the outside I look fragile

But on the inside is something you can’t crush

Cause I'm country strong

Hard to break

Like the ground I grew up on

You may fool me

And I'll fall

But I won’t stay down long

Cause I’m country strong

I have weathered

Colder winters; Longer summers

Without a drop of rain

Push me in a corner

And I’ll come out fighting

I may lose but I‘ll always keep my faith

Cause I’m country strong

Hard to break

Like the ground I grew up on

You may fool me

And I’ll fall

But I won’t stay down long

Cause I’m country strong

Cause I’m country strong

Hard to break

Like the ground I grew up on

You may fool me

And I’ll fall

But I won’t stay down long

Cause I’m country strong

I’m country strong

Yeah, I’m country strong

I’m country strong

I’m country strong

I’m country strong

a bad day

by purplekit94 on Polyvore.com

A bad fibro/lupus day.

Fibro

It's been a rough couple of days...

swollen

stiff and achy

migrainey

exhausted

cold chills then sweating spells

intense nausea

always sooo exhausted

American Soldier

Today marks the 9th anniversary of the Attacks on the World Trade Center.

My generation really haven't had anything impact our lives in this fashion, until the attacks on 09-11-01. The "scary stories" of war had always happened far away from us, not really mentioned on the news or in classrooms. Many people remember, still angry, still hurting, still lost in shock to a certain degree. The topic of war on terrorism divides families and friends, while people take passionate stands on both sides of the issue.

I'm not a very political girl. I pray for the candidates, follow on the issues that mean the most to me, and do my best to vote in the manner that I feel lead to do so. I don't pick a side when it comes to the debate on terrorism though... As horrible as the attack in New York was, it happens all over the world. Maybe it was just our turn? Not to say it is "ok" by any means, but I am not naive enough to believe for one second that we will ever live in a world without war. I know that it is necessary, otherwise there could only be one view... and I change my mind too much for that to become a reality. :) But I hate being asked "Do you support the war, elana?" I don't want to get into any kind of arguments or "enthusiastic discussions" over oil, terrorism, etc... I tend to focus my thoughts on the Soldiers. I support the soldiers, their families, and the sacrifices they are making... for my right to have an opinion! Maybe it is the "submissive/slave" part of me (or my personality) that helps me see past the dispute and see the heart of what is going on? Maybe it is because I am much more of a people person? Maybe it is because the soldiers and their families are clearly concrete visible... while the other is more theory?

Either way, war will always exist... Soldiers of all ages, races, and genders, will not make it home... Families will continue to lose children, parents, siblings, spouses, and loved ones… does that make it ok? No. But it makes their sacrifice worth so very much... I was brought up to have deep respect and humble gratitude to Soldiers and their families... I thank my Dad for that. He taught me to always say "thank you" to those who gave of their time, gave their life, limb or family member in an act of service to our country.

To Soldiers and their families today, please accept a meek offering of sincere yet intense appreciation... for doing what you do, so I can have the right to do what I do.

To those who's lives were changed forever on that September morning... you and your family will continue to be in my prayers.

Whispers of her Heart: The Final Inspection

moody

I am moody right now.

I have been moody for a few days lately.

I don't enjoy it, but I know it's a response to stress.

It's because part of my family is in serious crisis.

It's because work has been completely all-consuming.

It's because I am exhausted mentally and emotionally.

It's because my body is tired.

It's because I really miss my Dad.

And I'm so tired that I've decided it's ok.

Knowing your place

"It is hard to be a man," I said, "until one stands in a relation to a woman. And, I suppose, it is hard to be a woman until one stands in a relation to a man."

"What relation," she asked, "Master?"

"That of the natural order of nature," I said.

"Yes, Master," she said.

I looked at her. "I cannot know well the nature of your feelings," I said, "but I know, and well, that women are deep as well as beautiful."

"We are so different from you," she said. "I fear you will never understand us."

"It is doubtless easier to put you on your knees and push the whip to your teeth than it is to understand you," I said.

"The man who truly understands us," she laughed, "is the first to put us on our knees and make us kiss the whip."

~ Explores of Gor - Page 188

What woman could respect a man who is not strong enough to put her under the whip? ~ Guardsman of Gor - Page 102

I don't believe the whip in the context of these quotes mean a literal whip. I very much agree that men and women have roles in the relationship, however which place each belongs in depends on the people in question. For me, I know that I need a strong dominant Man who will remain in control, guiding and molding me into a better person. I embrace the fact that I need to be obedient, mastered, and in service to Another. I need to know that He is strong enough to master me, I ache to know he burns to control me, I desire him to want to discipline me... otherwise how can He be the ‘Man’ in my life? If I am able to push him around, walk all over him, and back him off – how can I respect him? How can he respect me?

So for those that doesn’t understand me? They will never be able to ‘keep me in my place’ within a relationship and I will not be happy... because the Man that ‘gets me’, will ensure that I remain on my knees in service to him (again not literally kneeling all of the time) where I am the happiest.