Conditional Slut

Is it harder to be a slut when you're falling apart?

For me, yes it is much harder. I cannot go to that place of complete focus on Him with the absolute abandonment of my own control. Not control of the situation but control of myself... my fears, my desires, my arousal. I have to feel safe, I have to feel that He can take that control that i have relinquished. If I am falling apart emotionally, I need Him to pull me back together. If He can anchor me, ground me, then arouse me intensely... That is when I am truly His... I think those moments, are when I truly become His slut.