I don't heart ladybugs!

I used to think that ladybugs cute. I thought they were colorful friendly lucky and adorable. But right now, I am sick of them. I live out in the country and the front part of the house began as a ‘ladybug wonderland’ because they would linger on our porch for a while. But today, during spring cleaning, I realized those horrible little creatures have taken over the front part of the house!

Whenever someone says ”ladybug” everyone thinks of this. ------>

<---------- Only I know the truth!! Those little monsters are more like this!!

Something about me attracts those little demons, they walk up and down my arms, land on my body, and am being stalked by about a dozen of them. No matter what I am doing outside, within a few minutes of being in the yard the demonic red creatures begin hassling me.

Yes I feel a little for using a vacuum cleaner attachment to gather and dispose of a swarm of these animals, but on the other hand I am proud of myself for not doing something more drastic. But you can best believe that I will be looking into a solution to this problem... quickly.

my Hero!

A couple well known rumors/legends regarding ladybugs.

In France, if a Ladybug landed on you, whatever ailment you had would fly away with the Ladybug.

(No such luck, I’ve had a blue-million ladybugs on me over the last 14 months and my ailments are no better.)

If a Ladybug is held in the hand while making a wish, the direction that it flies away to shows where your luck will come from.

(What about if they are sucked up in a vacuum cleaner? Would that void your luck?)

In Belgium, people believed that if a Ladybug crawled across a young girl's hand, she would be married within a year.

(I have this happen multiple times a week and I am still single.)

In the 1800's, some doctors used Ladybugs to treat measles! They also believed that if you mashed ladybugs (ewww!) and put them into a cavity, the insects would stop a toothache!

(Lady bugs taste NASTY! They are bitter and stink. No I haven’t eaten a lady bug but one flew into a glass of water one time and someone I knew drank it without seeing it! He gagged and coughed for almost forty minutes!)

During the Pioneer days, if a family found a Ladybug in their log cabin during the winter, it was considered a "Good Omen".

(These days, that is called an “infestation”. See "hero" mentioned above.)

Something's Gotta Give

Something's Gotta Give

Sung by LeAnn Rimes

Jenny got a job, a cat named Jake,

31 candles on her birthday cake

Next year

Thought by now she'd have a man

Two car seats and a minivan

But it still ain't here (hey!)

(Instrumental)

Alright

(Instrumental)

She's been lookin' for Mr. Right so long

But all she found is Mr. Wrong

and That's the pitts

She's drawn a line that she won't cross

Her and time are facing off

She says something's gotta give

(Chorus)

Somethin gotta give me butterflies

Somethin gotta make me feel alive

yeah,

Somethin gotta give me dreams at night

Somethin gotta make me feel alright

I don't know where it is

Yeah but something's gotta give

Friday night she had a date

Cell phone junky half hour late

That's the biz baby

She's riding out this twist of fate

She's had all that she can take

She says something's gotta give

(repeat chorus)

I swear

There's got to be a meant to be for me out there

Somewhere someday

I'm gonna find someone, somehow, someway

Instrumental

alright

Yeahehe

Jenny's got a job, a cat named Jake,

31 candles on her birthday cake

Next year

She thought by now she'd have a man

Two car seats and a minivan

She says something's gottta,

Something's gotta,

Something's gotta give

I don't know where it is

Yeah but something's gotta

I don't know where it is

Yeah but something's gotta

I don't know where it is

Yeah but something's gotta give

Oh somethings gotta give

Intentions

Today was a rough day for me. Something happened that has caused me to question my desire for a power exchange relationship. Am I serving for the wrong reason? I want to serve because that is where I am happiest and feel the most like myself... I truly do wish to make my Owner happy and please Him. And yes, on some level I know that the skew of responsibility is asymmetrical – depending on which issues are focused on. But I’m not the kind of girl that is only trying to get out of ‘all decisions’, to kick back and ride my Master’s coat tails when it comes to making any choices or taking any responsibility at all. I have known people in the past that were submissive for those reasons, but I’m not that kind of girl. If anything, I find more choices to be made in service! Putting what will please my Master over what I want, because I feel that certain acts become an extension of service to Him.

Then again, on a certain level there is an amount of expectation when it comes to taking care of one’s partner. How can the girl serve Him if she is not at her best? While I want a Master who will ensure that I am taken care of and that will hold my best interest in His mind... I don’t want a Master just so He can take care of me.

Is it selfish for me to need someone to be strong for me when I can’t be? And not to assume too much, but I want that person to the Man I have given control of myself, my choices, etc. Or is that too much to ask? Or does that make my intentions of surrender selfish/wrong?

I’m still thinking, I don’t feel like I’m expressing it very well or my thoughts. But it is something to think about, I think.

~ I love this picture!

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Boundaries Analogy

I like to color, it relieves my stress and helps me relax... sometimes it helps me think. I like how the coloring pages have those bold thick boundaries, so I know what is ok to color and what is not. Yes I could color outside the line if I wanted to, but then I could not help create the picture the Artist had in mind to start with... Sometimes I think my personality and my submission is like the crayons, that when matched with the right 'picture', could have the potential to be something beautiful.. something 'right'.

The best way to describe what I am looking for is with an analogy. I am not an artist, but I love to color. I can spend hours coloring, listening to the radio or watching a movie, using my imagination to bring to life the picture on the page. However, I don't like to draw/color my own designs. I feel lost and overwhelmed without those bold lines to serve as my boundaries. Perhaps I focus on the ride shade of blue for the eyes and don't have the image of the whole character in my head before I color. I do my best to stay in the lines because I want to honor the picture the illustrator intended it to be. That is what I need in a relationship too. I need someone to have the big picture in mind, setting those boundaries to ensure that I am focusing on the right ways of bringing color (or service) and not getting overwhelmed with the process - yet still allowed to bring 'my touch' to it.